Do you realize that when that little kid saw momma kissing Santa Clause underneath the mistletoe toe that night, how traumatic that was? I mean did he run tell Dad? I bet he didnt, it would have broken his Dad’s heart! The torment that poor little kid must have felt keeping that secret! I am almost 30 years old now, and up until last year I never figured that song out, and no one every thought to explain it to me! I thought Santa had it made, some Milk, Cookies, and a little kissy kiss at each stop. Player!

Christmas is coming and I am very excited! My Grandmother is coming, MY parents will be here, and I have a son of my own that will be showing up shortly after! I find myself planning all these play dates in my head, of all the cool things we will get to do. It’s like getting to live your childhood all over again, but this time I will have a smaller version of myself to do it with. I keep remembering all the fun things I did as a kid. I had an active imagination that is still as clear to me today as it was back then. All these things I want to share with him. I feel we have grown closer these past few months, I feel him move as he moves around in Jackie, I love to feel him move, its my new favorite pass time. We talk about man things, and sing weird songs about goats and chicken wings, he likes that.

I love the anticipation of Christmas, this Christmas will be the last Christmas of just Jackie and myself, and thats OK. We will always have our time and make time for each other, but Christmas after this year will be a new, and exciting change for us both. I will however make a point of this, when he is old enough, I will explain the meaning of that song to him, so he is not as confused as I have been all these years.