
I have thought of a 100 different ways to write this post. A million different emotions go through my mind when I think about this past year. Jackie and I were talking about 2008 on new years eve, and how this past year has been the most stressful, eventful, joyful and emotional year we have ever had together. It has also been the BEST year we have ever had together. The main reason for its success was our faith in God to always provide for us and give us exactly what we needed to make it through the hard times. The other reason is that little boy you have all watched grow so much in the last 365 days, his name of course is Desmond.
I have never talked on here about the day of Jackie’s delivery. Maybe I will share little bits as the years go by. I remember little things like the night before staying in the hospital. I remember the nurses and how awesome they were. I remember being scared, and I kept telling myself to “be a man Greg, this was it, it is all going to change from here on out, she needs you, he needs you, its not about you anymore, its going to be OK“. When I first saw him he was crying and I remember his little cry when he came out into the world. The look on his face is something I will never forget. I had just seen Jackie cry and go through all she went through, and as soon as I saw his face and him crying I saw Jackie in him, they cried the same. He grabbed my finger with his hand, and instantly I fell completely in love with him.
I did not feel any different after Desmond was born. I did not feel like a Dad or anything like that until much later. I knew things were going to change, and I had to welcome the change, I did not have a choice. Today I do feel like a Dad, everyday of being a Dad is an amazing feeling. It is my favorite job, and maybe job is not the right word, maybe gift or opportunity, or privilege? I do not know. I do know I can’t remember life before him. I remember life of course, but now its just better. It is never dull or boring, it is always go, go, go. Much different from how I remember life before. Jackie and I have grown so much closer as a husband and wife, we take care of each other, and love each other more then I could have ever dreamed.
So Happy Birthday Desmond, you are now ONE! You are walking, talking some, you want things, you play, you make us laugh every single day, you keep us up at night sometimes, you poop and pee on us, you puke on us, throw food, bite, laugh, smile, wave and say heeeey, lean your head to side like a little flurt, have beautiful curly hair, love to dance and play music, and most of all you love us with all your heart, and for this we love you too. Happy Birthday buddy. Thank you for so much joy.
I have put together a little video of some of my favorite photos over the past year, added a little music by Kenny Chezbutt, and WALaa! Instant Video Cheese
So grab a tissue and sit back and have a cry, our baby boy is growing up.
(click here to download video)